Week 2

Since last week I have completed several more lessons in the self branding workbook, written twice, participated with Mitch as vendors at Lower Town Art and Music festival, made a banquet breakfast (ham, casserole, biscuits, 150 deviled eggs, etc)for end of the year celebration for my dual credit students, hosted our final Europe trip meeting, voted, visited with a family friend that I haven't spent time with in maybe 7 years, had an epic allergic reaction to almonds, cleaned my jewelry, inventoried it, re mechanized our local sales venue, prepared a box to ship, attended senior awards night, handed out honor cords, gave an impromptu speech, entered hundreds of final senior grades, and started on a collaborative wall hanging with my aunt to be finished before we leave for Europe on June 6th. Dedicating time to self reflection or growth is not easy. Especially at this time of the year. My professional responsibilities make it difficult to dedicate a reasonable amount of time to even minimal self care. However, through working in the workbook I've discovered that I AM actually passionate about teaching. That's a pretty big pill for me. To say or write, "I am not willing to put this part of my life aside, teaching is vital to my personhood, my contribution to the world is greater in the classroom than it is in my studio", is big. But the conjoined twin to this discovery is that my contribution to my students is diminished if I am not a maker. This is a two headed snake. Both aspects of my self require 100%. And completely leave out my family. And my self outside of teacher/maker role. Which is why I have started this renewed journey of accountability and reflection. Today I blog for accountability. I blog to offer myself necessary reflection time. And to say how awesome reflection has been to show me that 15 years of chasing the dream of being a maker I realize that my goals have changed as I've grown. The fun part of the, the win, if you will, is that through taking the time to reflect (if only a wee bit) I have realized that I AM achieving many of the things we set out to do. We had our best LTAMF yet. We increased prices on a few items and saw an increase in our bottom line. I recognized that many of the customers who came in off the street and raved over my work AND bought things, fit the image of "dream client" I was forced to imagine through doing the Braid workbook. The things we set out to do, we ARE doing! Plus ten thousand things more. This week's added bonus is that Mitch agreed to do the exercises with me. It has been fun to see how we differ from and mirror each other in the beginning exercises. Not only am I tasked with self discovery and reflection but I'm married to a maker and together we have built our life around our creativity. Meaning we must BOTH self care in order to contribute to the health of the whole. Now if you'll excuse me, Wren requires that I nap with her a while.